And here I am, a year later, starting over again. Feeling empty. Feeling lonely.
It's not like this is a new thing for me. Even before I moved from Ferron I felt like this.
I'm wondering if maybe it is me.
Last year when I moved I was determined to be friendly with everyone, and not wait for people to be friendly with me first.
Over the course of the year I made some great friends, and started to feel like I belonged, at least a little bit.
But still, I never felt like there was really anybody who sought out my company.
I have issues with this all. the. time. And I'm sure you guys are tired of hearing about it.
But writing about it helps me feel better. And your comments make me feel not so alone.
Lately I've had my sister living with me, and she has definitely filled that void. She is a living, breathing best friend right in my house! We have had so much fun just being silly together. This transition has been much easier with her.
You all know how wonderful my husband is, but girls just need girlfriends in their lives, don't they?
But really, I'm just tired. Tired of starting over, tired of trying to find my place in my new town, my new community, my new ward. I just have no energy for it this time.
So maybe I'll just become a hermit.
Let's see how well that works out for me.