Cleaning House

We are moving.  Again.  

This will be our 12th move in the almost 11 years that we have been married.  And hopefully the last for quite some time. 

I am so excited, because we are finally buying a house! 

I've mentioned some big changes....buying a house is one of them.  

I am excited. And stressed. 

It's always good to have the opportunity to clean house, to throw away that which you don't really need.  

Out with the old, in with the new. 

But I am cleaning house in more ways than one......

I recently had an interesting experience on facebook.  One which made me think.  A lot.  About myself.  And about what I need in my life.  

Call me selfish, but I am at a point in my life where I really do not need or want drama.  I have enough on my plate as it is. I don't want to spend an afternoon crying over something so silly, I still can't even believe the response I got. 

I don't enjoy controversy, I never have.  I like peace.  I don't like the feeling of anger when something makes me rear up in self defense. 

In my relationships with others, I try to lift them up, and help them be a better person.  

One thing they can rest assured in is that I've got their back.  I will defend them.  And I would never purposely attack them or embarass them. 

At the Casual Blogger Conference speaker Matt Townsend said something that really stuck with me. (You have to listen to him sometime, he is so funny I was almost peeing my pants.)  He was talking about relationships and the first thing he mentioned is that in any relationship we have to feel safe. 

Safe. 

Not trust, love, or affection. 

Safety.

In the knowledge that they will not turn against you. Talk bad about you. Treat you differently behind your back than they do to your face. 

So I want to surround myself with friends and family that make me feel safe. 

That know me well enough that they will keep me safe. Not just physically, but emotionally. 

I think I deserve that.