A pain that cuts so deep

Sometimes I look out of my safe little world. My glasses have a rosy tint but the gray and rain leak through, no matter what I do.

So much sorrow. So much sadness. So much suffering.

It's enough to break your heart into a million little pieces, a million times a day.

So I retreat into my cozy little world. Where it's happy. Where it's safe. Where love resides.

But with every moment, every kiss, every memory, I open up a little more. The greatest love leaves you open for the greatest pain.

Love heals. But it also leaves you balancing above the abyss. I cry just imagining life without the ones I love. Sometimes I can't sleep worrying that I'll lose it all.

I hold to the faith that if that pain ever comes (and pray that it won't) that I'll remember the One who has felt it all. On purpose. He didn't turn away. He didn't hide from it. He did what I could never ever do....but of course only He could.

And He did. It stills amazes me.

If you are in pain. If you have lost someone you love. If you are hurting.

My heart is with you.

And His always has been with you, and always will be. That I know to be true.