I knew it was going to happen. I knew it. I just knew it.
I knew that one of these days it would catch up to me. It was too good, it could never last.
The euphoric days would end, I knew this.
I can't be hurt, it's not fair. I do the same thing to countless others, and yet I don't see them crying..... of course I can't usually see them either......
I read this post by my dear friend Jane who I have known for what seems like forever, although it's been since about November. And when I read this post I remember thinking that I wish I could get close to as many comments as her........ but also feeling like I would be happy if I could get one or two. Looking at my latest posts I see 5.......11.......53....... really not too shabby in the commenting area.
But here I am. Lost. Sad. Lonely. Wondering why I can't stop checking my email to see if I have any comments. Do they care anymore? Am I just too boring now? Was the pink too much and they've all gone blind?
It's ridiculous. And I know why this has happened. I began to rely too much on comments for validation.
As Jane says: "Blogging is similar to stay-at-home motherhood in some unfortunate ways. Stay-at-home motherhood, is, at times, unsatisfying because it doesn’t always seem like a real job. It’s the same with blogging. Which is why comments and ad revenue and bloggy friends to talk with and site traffic are important. (And why the lack of any one of these things can be very, very discouraging)."
You have to read her whole post because I am relating with it way more than I did when she first wrote it.
So the moral of this post is not to make you comment out of pity.......it is to say that I appreciate you for reading, even though life is crazy and most of the blogs I subscribe to I have to delete with a glimpse because I just don't. have. time. I wish I did. I really truly do. And I'm sorry if I don't get to your blog as often as I should. Or comment as often as I should.
Love me anyway?
Do you have a blog? How do you feel about comments? If you read me tell me and I will list you under my blogs that I must read!
Have a good night......*sniff*.........I'm fine now.....really.
Caution! Sharp curve ahead...
2 months ago