Eeeeek!

A month or so ago I was browsing the teaching jobs here in our district.  Looking around for a job for hubby closer to where we live. 

While searching, I came across my dream job....a part time Music Specialist job at a new Elementary School about ten minutes from us.  I love kids of all ages, I love teaching, and I love music.......but I also loved working from home. 

I happened to mention it to hubby, and he's like go for it, just apply and see what happens.  My jaw dropped, I'm like, are you serious?  I'm not ready for a job.  The twins are only three.  

You don't have to take it, he said, just go for it. 

So I did. 

And I got an interview. 

And after a month of waiting to hear, being sure that there was no way I got it (I heard there were 400 people who applied for the six jobs at that school), I heard back. 

And I got it. 

And then I had to decide wether or not to take it. 

This was a very hard decision for me. I am a mother and wife first, period. 

But money is tight, and I had to find ways to work from home.  So even when I am home I didn't always feel like they were getting my attention. 

So after much discussion, prayer, and a trip to the temple, we felt like it was right for our family. 

I would now be buying educational kids toys for my kids at school as well as for my own kids and preschoolers. 

And this will be my first real out of home job since getting married eleven years ago. 

What if I suck at it?

What if my kids get ignored?

What if it's too much for me?

What if I find out I hate it?

What if it was the wrong thing?

But then I have to go back. 

Go back to that peaceful feeling that this is right for me and my family. 

I know it will be hard work. And most everyone I talk to thinks I'm crazy. 

But I'm going to give it a go. 

And by gum am I excited!