Wednesday, January 20, 2010

It's not like I woke up one day

 and thought.....hmm, I think I'd really like to get fatter and unhealthier.  I'd like to put all this extra weight on so that I feel tired and sluggish.  I mean golly, being thin is in so for me it is SO out!

No, irregardless of my psychotic fascination with doing the opposite of what is "cool" and "in", the whole overweight (since fat, obese, disgusting tend to make me cringe) journey was not a conscious choice.  Trying to get healthy, or healthier IS a conscious choice, but is still one that seems to kick me in the butt every day. 

I don't believe in being "skinny" or "thin", I know that I will never look like an anorexic model.  Nor do I want to.  Honestly, most the time I'm even actually okay with myself, because my body hasn't ever betrayed me.  Yet.  So far it's worked for everything I've wanted to do.  I can still run and play and tumble with my boys.  

But even that is not enough anymore.  I want to feel good.  And yes, I want to look good.  And I am making day to day changes that will help me get there.  I know it won't happen overnight.  It's going to be a long hard process.  But I really believe, this time, that I will get there.  

One resource that has been incredibly helpful to me is a new blog called Healthy Life Crusaders.  Not only does it have a plethora of incredibly useful information, it is also authored by my high school best friend and sister-in-law Liz, and her sister Val.  I know that Liz has been through a lot with her health, and has learned a lot of things that can help you control your own health in natural ways.  And I am lucky enough to have her as my cheerleader every day!  

Another resource that has been incredibly helpful to me is The One Day Way by Chantel Hobbs.  Her method makes it easier for me to just take it one day and one step at a time instead of getting overwhelmed trying to do it all at once and then giving up, as usual.  She said so many things in her book that I agree with, including using faith in the process.  And I am nothing without faith and prayer.  

I can't promise that I will lose a pound a day, or that I will be skinny in a few months.  But I believe that I need to do what I can to help myself and my family lead a healthier, happier life.  

But, you know, I'll always be me.  Fat or thin.  So take it or leave it.  Peace out my friends.  And good luck on whatever journey you are on!


  1. Cool. So did you sign up for anything? Or ARE you just trying to get to a heathier YOU?
    Yeah me too. I just wish those Ho-ho-s would stop calling my name. i am picking up more fruit and ACTUALLY eating it. Yeah for me!

  2. I didn't know your sister-in-law has a health blog, I will have to check it out. Don't stress about it that is my mantra. I have been obsessed for far to long and this time when I finally am losing weight it is because I let it go and stopped stressing.

  3. I'm on the same journey (thanks to Becky and a few other role models)! Good luck! I know we can do it!

  4. Man Oh Man I need to do something too!! When its nicer out we should go waling at night or something!!! Lara and I wanted to do that last summer!! So maybe us three should!!

  5. Yup, I like one day at a time, one thing at a time. I'm trying to get the exercise habit ingrained before I try to redo eating habits.

  6. Alexes, no, not signed up for anything. I'm too cheap. I'm just making little changes every day. Becky and Dione...yes! Lindsay, we totally should!

  7. I really like this post, I agree that we need to be a "healthy" weight but I also think that we need to love ourself and be happy with ourself no matter what we look like on the outside. There is so much more to life that being "skinny". Good luck on your crusade.

  8. I also hate the words fat, obese, "big" etc. I think as "bigger" girl I'm more sensative when people use those words to describe other people.

    Good luck! I need to get that book. It sounds good!

  9. It drives me nuts when folks think that being skinny or thin = being healthy or fit. Just because someone is thin doesn't mean they are healthy (after all, you can get thin from bulimia and have done irreparable damage to your internal organs, your throat, your teeth....however, on the flip side, I've had people accuse me - quite vehemently - of being anorexic just because my dad's genetics kept me scrawny as a kid) and just because someone looks heavy compared to a runway model doesn't mean they aren't healthy - my own husband is a "big guy" who is constantly taped after his military PT tests because of his BMI (height to weight proportion) and yet he eats healthy and works out 2-3 times a day when he's not deployed....he's a former powerlifter and can hit 250 lbs but it's pure MUSCLE.

    Don't let anybody tell you what you should "weigh" - find a point where you are happy with the way your clothes fit, with the way you feel when you play with your kids, when your bloodwork comes back from the doc and everything is "normal".

    You keep being you, sweet lady! If you want to lose weight, fine - but I'm sure your loved ones and friends just want you healthy and comfy. {{HUGS}}

  10. And what a journey it is. I am on the same bumpy journey. I have a few vacations coming up in a few months and there will be a lot of beaches and poolside lounging. I need to get my butt in gear!


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