Last night I had a dream that I was young, skinny-ish and single again. Barely out of high school. I have dreams similar to this quite often and my dreams are also very vivid and I am fairly good at remembering them. (Unlike most things)
Anyway, in this dream there was a cute boy that I had a crush on that I was flirting with shamelessly. (Funny enough, I could not tell you a thing about what he looked like.) This little drama played out where this shy girl also liked him but I sashayed my way in and won the boy whilst apologizing so sweetly to the shy girl that sorry...he's taken. Sound like a really bad sitcom? I thought so too.
Well as this dream goes on Eldon suddenly shows up in all his tall, handsome glory and then I suddenly realize I'm married to him so I feel dumb and guilty about flirting with this other (turns out) younger boy but also incredibly relieved to know that I am married to Eldon instead. Phew.
The dream goes on and suddenly my family shows up and my Mom is watching my kids and wondering what in the heck I've been doing and why I wasn't watching them myself and blah blah blah real life creeps back in until I'm myself at 29 again in my not so skinny-ish body with my hubby and four kids.
And I'm totally relieved.
And I'm telling you, I have dreams similar to this way too often with the same ending every time.
On July 31, 2009 Eldon and I reached 10 years of marriage. I honestly love him more now than when we got married. I can't imagine an existence without him, even in my dreams.
I don't talk about him here a lot and I don't really know why except that I feel like our marriage and relationship is a sacred thing. It's good you guys, really good.
In my eyes he is way too stinkin' smart, sexy, an amazing Dad, a great husband, sweet, caring, loving, adorable, funny, silly, and absolutely perfect for me.
In his eyes I am young, and beautiful, and smart, and sexy. In his eyes I'm a good Mom and a good wife.
And that is something I will never ever give up.
Not even in my dreams.
Caution! Sharp curve ahead...
2 months ago